food for thought

i really like to share this; a conversation between me and a very good friend of mine,

me:
awak, when people lie and you fall for it, not once, but a couple of times, does it proves that you are god damn stupid??

her:
hmmmmm.... i guess it really depends....

what kind of lie was told, who did the lying, does the person who lied matters to you, why that person lie, and how it affected you..

entah la awak, as i grow older, there are many things that i see differently today...

Sometimes, people lie because they are afraid of the truth, sometimes people lie to protect themselves, sometimes people lie to make things better for the people around them, but there are also people who are just plain liars... so, it depends to which one you are actually referring to.

i am not quite sure.

dh terlalu lame aku tak update new post kat blog aku nie... these past few months, there's so many things had changed, yet i have very few things to share...

Basically,
I'm living a not so interesting life recently..
In other words - my life sucks! totally monotonous! and damn boring!...
the one and only good thing is that im currently continuing the next phase in my life here in my hometown-MELAKA..
meaning, i am sharing the same roof with my lovely (at times! kekekekeke...) family members now and i am very close to my best friends since school with me here!...
so, i neither have to crack my head everyday thinking of what i should have for breakfast, lunch, or dinner nor having to worry about critical financial problem as what i had experienced in Sydney...
Good bye, mates!!...
and I thank God for that.


Still... I am not quite sure that i was born to be a teacher...
countless challenges especially teaching youths nowadays...
their own parents can hardly say anything, so, whats more a teacher can do??!!!!
this new energy is fading... and my motivation is disappearing...
Aish!!!!!...


But i guess, though i might not born to be a good teacher, yet I'm also not a loser!..
I'll try to gather back my remaining determination and fight!...
if i cant survive, then,
i guess the best option is to get myself transferred to a new school..
hopefully, a better one.... where students are as good and nice as my students during practicum in SMKPW...
having positive attitudes towards learning and respect others....
For god sake!!!.. i totally miss you all girls... you all are the BEST!!!...



Anyway, i attended my graduating ceremony last Saturday in IPBA...
at last!...

Anis, me, Pamela and Alia..

Us!!!
Macq Cohort 4!!!